the illunsion is the thing. substance is measured in appearance. if you appear to be doing well to others then your estimation of yourself is high. if they don't believe that you are doing well then you don't either. perception is focused from without as opposed to from within. when most americans walk into a public place their point of view is on the outside of themselves looking back at themselves and "seeing how they look". while they are aware of "how they look" they have little or no idea of how they actually are...inside. the inner man has been sacrificed in america and has had his place taken by a shell without a soul.

I feel the same way, Michael. People are scrambled with their motivators in the strangest of places. We are to worship the outside and forget the inside so that several end up in the wrong places. They say, you're just jealous because you can't have it. I don't want it. You're in denial. Who can say they aren't in denial? This puts you in a trap where you don't want something, but you're thinking about it. Add a little doubt of self and a hint of acceptance to a desperate person lacking awareness with the potential of success and voom, you're there, even though you aren't then you've chased the white horse when you can't have "your" dreams. The only way to win is shatter your containers by their faults and vanities and force them to sin in ways that will end them. Unfortunately, the revenge reactions get a little complicated and unpredictable and are not just if you do too much. They say, I have truth too. You still value your lifestyle, don't you? If someone isn't a loyal servant to you/ you don't have anything on them, anything they know about you will hurt, especially if you are a cheat or have made them overly jealous. You can sue and lock up as many people as you want in a psych ward, but America is still a free country, so they'll come back at you with a little knowledge and have overcome their past just as you did, and if you've been too comfortable for too long, oh no, and they still want what you have, so they'll take your place and the giants with strange priorities will use them. If you wouldn't have trapped these people with enchantments, emptiness and shallow promises, bad things wouldn't be happening to you. As for having something and not having something, it's relative to the system that you are as well as what you have and where, how you got it. In order to have big money, you have to have connections. It's why new money often fails and we have the clone wars. The political dynamics of this are interwoven in the strangest of ways.